This is What I Want
There came a point in my life when I knew this is what I wanted most of all.
As I was growing up, I heard about the promise of the Holy Spirit from my family, and I started praying for God to fill me with His Spirit at the age of 8. By 14, I was quite distressed as to why I hadn't received the Holy Spirit, and I made a deal with God — to be baptised, in exchange for the Holy Spirit. I got baptised that Sunday, but I didn't receive the Spirit then. During the following Sunday’s talk, my ears pricked up, as the pastor said, “You can't bargain with God”.
I was feeling like I wouldn't receive the Holy Spirit at all, when, at 16, I attended the National Youngies Camp. I found all the talks fascinating, alluring. About half-way through the camp, I started having nightmares about the Lord returning and I wasn't ready, from which I would wake up crying … which seemed to spur me on even more. On the last day, in the last meeting, during the last opportunity for prayer, I went outside with someone for some last-minute prayer for the Holy Spirit. I was thinking, “This is what I want most right now”, when I received the Holy Spirit and spoke in tongues. It was like a cool breeze rushing in on a hot day, and I felt as light as a feather.
In the years since, the Lord has blessed my life with miracles, healings and guidance. He has also blessed me with a beautiful Spirit-filled wife, and a child. I can't wait till the Lord returns, and we get to meet this amazing God that we call Father.
‘“Not by works of righteousness which we have done, but according to his mercy he saved us, by the washing of regeneration, and renewing of the Holy Ghost;”’ Titus 3:5 KJV