This is What I Want
There came a point in my life when I knew this is what I wanted most of all.
As I was growing up, I heard about the promise of the Holy Spirit from my family, and I started praying for God to fill me with His Spirit at the age of 8. By 14, I was quite distressed as to why I hadn't received the Holy Spirit, and I made a deal with God — to be baptised, in exchange for the Holy Spirit. I got baptised that Sunday, but I didn't receive the Spirit then. During the following Sunday’s talk, my ears pricked up, as the pastor said, “You can't bargain with God”.
I was feeling like I wouldn't receive the Holy Spirit at all, when, at 16, I attended the National Youngies Camp. I found all the talks fascinating, alluring. About half-way through the camp, I started having nightmares about the Lord returning and I wasn't ready, from which I would wake up crying … which seemed to spur me on even more. On the last day, in the last meeting, during the last opportunity for prayer, I went outside with someone for some last-minute prayer for the Holy Spirit. I was thinking, “This is what I want most right now”, when I received the Holy Spirit and spoke in tongues. It was like a cool breeze rushing in on a hot day, and I felt as light as a feather.
In the years since, the Lord has blessed my life with miracles, healings and guidance. He has also blessed me with a beautiful Spirit-filled wife, and a child. I can't wait till the Lord returns, and we get to meet this amazing God that we call Father.
‘Jesus said: “Ye must be born again… of water and of spirit.”’ John 3:5